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Finding Myself In Isolation
Like most university students, I enjoyed the first week of isolation social distancing. After just a few weeks of coming back and dealing with toxic people, not sleeping due to assignments, and killer lecturers, I felt some sort of happiness that I wouldn't have to handle most of that until the end of semester. I started losing my mind around the third week. Online classes had me lose most of my focus and I found myself spiralling into a deep pit of depression that I haven't fallen into since the end of last year. I felt useless as I had four mental breakdowns in one day, my habit of self-harm came back, and it didn't help that the economical state of the world was crashing more and more each day as the cure to this virus was yet to be found.
By Avalon Morgenstern6 years ago in Motivation
Finding Motivation when Quarantine Leaves You Purposeless
We are living in a period of history that we never imagined. Instead of New Years Resolutions, we were hit with a global pandemic, followed by a Stay-At-Home Order. We were forced into being still, into stopping our lives. But does this mean that our purpose in life has to come to a halt as well?
By Abigail Ann6 years ago in Motivation
Below Rock Bottom!
It’s December 13, 2015. I’ve just woken up freezing cold and lying on top of an old bookcase in my makeshift shelter in a secluded field. I’m homeless. I have no money, no phone, and no transportation. I’ve lost everything in my life including my beautiful wife and 6 amazing children, my multi-million dollar business, all my income, close and dear friends, and my dream home.
By Jeremy Bowman6 years ago in Motivation
Lost in Lockdown
Well, this is not fun, not having a job but being bombarded with college work. Luckily, I am still being paid from my bar job, but I’m stuck inside doing, what feels like, endless typing. My college document is almost at 10,000 words, and I’m pretty sure that isn’t even halfway, I had 12 days until my deadline, and I am struggling being stuck inside because I have so much to do. If I were still working, I definitely would not finish this work in time. Whilst I do go outside, in the garden, or for walks, I miss actually being able to go out, I miss waking up knowing that I can go out for food without having to spend more time queueing than shopping. Whilst I am not a big drinker, I miss going to the pub to play pool and socialise with my friends/colleagues. As much as I hate waking up early, I miss seeing my friends in college, I miss my teachers, and I miss the class banter. This is my final year in college, it’s highly unlikely that I’ll get to experience the jokes in college again and see my teachers. As soon as this lockdown is over, I’ll have to get a full-time job to pay bills and so I’m not just sitting at home with no income.
By Joel Greene6 years ago in Motivation
How To Bounce Back From Failure With 1 Photo, 1 Podcast & 1 Instagram Account.. Top Story - April 2020.
It was almost 2:00 A.M. when I cried myself to sleep. I was in a hotel room in Orlando, Florida for a family vacation, tossing and turning restlessly. Two days prior, I had been laid off from my job for the first time. Prior to that, I worked tirelessly through a PIP (performance improvement plan) for a whole month to stay at a premier, highly selective agency in San Diego. After many sleepless nights, panic attacks and stress cries, they decided to let me go.
By Sutheshna Mani6 years ago in Motivation
My voice
Hi my name is Sita, I want to try my best and explain something I went through something I hardly ever speak about, it feels right for me now to share this experience it may help me to open about it and to help me get over this ordeal in order for me to I also feel bringing this subject to light can help someone who has gone through a similar situation.
By Sita kaur6 years ago in Motivation
Every Little Thing..
04/23/20 I’m a mess. Let’s just state the obvious, 2020 has been so depressing and hard. Like yes previous years weren’t all peaches and cream but shit.. Give us a break! I started my Junior year of High School in the Fall of 2019 and it was the most stressful thing ever. People used to always tell me that Junior year would be the hardest, but I always deemed it as an exaggeration. Well I was wrong and they were right, Junior year drained me.
By KS6 years ago in Motivation
Howling at the Moon
I have lived in Idaho my whole entire life and I know what is it like to live in a small community. A lot of the time you are forgotten about because the whole world is focusing on something else. There are many mysteries that come with Idaho and the people who live here would like to keep it that way. The thing that most people don’t know is that we have many communities that are brought together and made stronger through difficult situations.
By Natalie C..6 years ago in Motivation
The Pagaent.
September 2016, the month that changed it all. I had been working as a hairdresser in a little village just outside Galway city, called clarinbridge. It was a really tiny rural village with a strong sense of community. For years every September they had held a festival named The Clarinbridge Oyster Festival. Galway city itself also hosted one a month later but it held no comparison. There were a series of things involved in this which made it the extravaganza it was and pulled every sort of folk from the village to get involved . There were radio and magazine interviews, Market days, promotional nights /days and of course the queens selection night! Each year the festival committee would hold some short interviews with local girls who hoped to be crowned that years Oyster Queen. In 2016 I was crowned that said lucky winner. I had been put forward by my boss in the hair salon. Tracy and I had worked together for four years at this stage and had become the best of friends, I had been having a rough time in my personal life and my confidence was low so she believed by entering me for this title it would boost my confidence, put me back out into the world and help me make new friends and connections whilst also boosting our salon from a buissness point! Once the queen is chosen the committee would pick a beauty salon and a hair salon to style her for the year pro bono! In return the salons would be promoted and given inside access to the festival activities, so to be crowned the queen and work inside the salon that was chosen was a double victory really!
By Jade Cunniffe 6 years ago in Motivation
M A Y B E
I texted you today. As usual, no answer. Before it would have hurt. Before I would cry. Why? It’s been months. I should be over it right? Why waste my time? I’m doing better, feeling better. Finally on an uphill. So why back track? I’ve put you on such a high pedestal. My own fault that that you never viewed me that high. I could never understand. Maybe I never will. Do we ever really get over The One? How many Ones’ must we go through before we let it go? I’ve loved before but not like this. How many times have we said this, felt this? Do yoYou u even feel?! Is it a program that you’ve mastered, a chip that plays over and over saying “Fuck Him!” “Fuck his feelings!” Some days I wish I could say that, do that. Why did I even reach out? Am I stupid? Have I lost my mind? Waiting for a response that will never come but guess what? I’ve stopped waiting. You are no longer the dominantion of my thoughts. Be lucky that I still care. It’s crazy how things change. One day you can be flying above the clouds, the next thing you know you’re making a crash landing. You wonder who is in control if you’ve lost your mind. I think that if you are in tune with your emotions then you are bound to find trouble. Not because you seek it out but cause and effect play roles bigger than you can possibly imagine. The heart wants what it wants and believe me nothing on this earth can change that. Dealing with an idle mind when you are in a transitional state is dangerous, trust me, I’ve been there and it’s not fun. You hold the key, you have the power. You have the ability to save yourself from yourself. Losing control is in your hands. Be careful, be cautious. It’s okay to put yourself first. Saying no isn’t as hard as it may seem. Look around and understand that in order to keep living you have to do what’s right for self first. Begging for attention is a thing of the past. I’ve been learning that I have no reason to go out of my way to prove myself to you or anyone else. Though it’s over, I still find myself reaching out. I find myself still looking for your approval. I’ve given all I could to the point where I have gone without and I was okay. Was I truly okay though? I wonder if I played along because I feared losing you more than I already have. I wonder if I lessened myself because I felt it necessary. What did you give me? What did you sacrifice? Why wasn’t what I offered good enough? So many questions but I know I’ll never get the answers. It blows my mind to think you have such a strong stance against me and how I feel. The fact that I have become public enemy number one in your eyes not only saddens me but disappoints me so. Maybe the lesson I thought I learned still has to be. Maybe moving on really means just that. Moving on from you one hundred percent without looking back. After all that’s how all this started, I looked back! I don’t want to spend the rest of my life twisting in the wind. Finding strength has never been hard to fin always been more beautiful than a lie. Maybe that’s it. Maybe it’s time to stop relying on maybes. Maybe it’s finally time.
By Antwan Monegan 6 years ago in Motivation
the beauty of self isolation
I wake up everyday to a media plagued with disease (literally), bad news stacking up like unwanted junk mail, but a thousand times worse. I’m confined within the four walls of the cube that is my home. The place that I’ve looked forward to returning to after a long day out has slowly morphed into a prison-like structure, it’s air heavy and silence overbearing. What started out as a new schedule has turned into a ball and chain I can’t get rid of, like clockwork it clatters on. I’ve tried out new hobbies: guitar, embroidery, and drawing, things I’ve always labeled with “I’ll do it later.” in an effort to fight off the boredom of daily life and find happiness amidst the chaos. However, it was the silent, abstract moments before I drifted off to sleep when I discovered the good in the evil, the beauty in the dying.
By isabella6 years ago in Motivation
