Word of the Day: 中火

I am being a bit superficial but, even self care can be work at times. I can't let myself be completely disheveled. I have an idea, I want to do a thing, but I also know I am not at my best right now, so I am wondering how much willpower I would actually have to actuate this thing.

It is for completely selfish reasons. Also it is to uphold a promise I made a long time ago. I told someone I would meet with them, at a specific place... I want to go to this place. But, I also worry it is a lie, since I said, he might've been emotionally distraught at the time he sent this message. So much so, I wonder if it was even him who sent it.

I already had something sabotaged before not too long ago, plus I have so much work to do I.. I just can't see how I would be able to make it.

I don't want to play it small at this time since my TODO list is asking me to rev up my game at the moment, but my human is weak as shit right now.

It just doesn't feel right at this time even if I were to go.

That's the thing, huh? I have been called to do things, I have felt that I should do things and hesitated out of my own fear. Felt super bad for not doing so. But that isn't what was going on this time.

want.

Yea, the voices are only little whispers at this time. For a while it has been like this, but since they seemed.... defragged, I have been ignoring it. I have been ignoring it because they aren't being clear but... some people say that when spirit is quiet like that, it is more honest... I can't do anything any way at this time.

I am very timely.

Hmm... ok? Geez, ok... cramps like a motherfucker...

I only have low-medium medicine for this... The rosehip would've been good. Let's see if the Neem oil will help any with the rose bush...

Top Priorities and Appointments are kicking my ass bruh, I am like... leave me alone..... Luckily I have so much else to do, but that doesn't mean I can just enter whatever to replace those.

This is stupid, I should be resting... I can't though, I have to do stuff... I guess I just complain here. I am not even boiling mad, I don't have the energy for that.

It actually feels good to be active though, despite everything. Also, the sun is out. That's nice.

I think my default mood has been annoyed since I've turned 30. Not angry, just... meh.

Rocco sending me funny shit. Are they doing it because I didn't remove the previous owner's name from the box? Or because of what I did at school? I am leaving it only because it would take too much time to take off. Also, I have no objection to people knowing who lived here before.

Rocco - ( Pixie Road ) the mail people who deliver by foot. Looks like Snoopy from Charlie Brown.

It's cute. Also as a fellow NPC, I am flattered that they would want to give me my request. But I can't do any mini quests right now.

Pluuuuuus, I know they aren't giving me all my mail so I am going to not indulge in everything, you know?

Perhaps maybe once I get ahead in my TODOs but, I can't even think of that right now as I need to fucking power walk for 3 days straight.