Stream of Consciousness
Word of the Day: 特注
I don't need to write anything but since I am bored out of my mind and actually caught up to editing my hello talk list, I am pretty free right now, surprisingly. I have 60 minutes on the clock. I might need to earn a bit more before class happens but I know that it will be fine.
By Kayla McIntosh26 days ago in Confessions
Word of the Day: 近眼
I am sort of happy about some really random things. Like I might know something about something but, I mean I feel... god yea it is just gossip isn't it? I usually avoid that kind of stuff but it is social currency. I guess I am used to playing a more passive role in things but I think it is more in response of being overlooked.
By Kayla McIntosh26 days ago in Confessions
Word of the Day: 見比べる
I don't have a word of the day yet, but I feel like I need to charge my computer at some point so I need to move again. I am making good progress but I am not learning anything. I am just making space for my emotions right now because of the whole issue with the SAM print out that is in Centage > PDF > Drive > (Personal)(School)
By Kayla McIntosh27 days ago in Confessions
The Letter I'll Never Send
I'll never tell you, but deep down in the furthest corner of my heart, I keep a flame alive for you. In the version of things that I tell myself (to prevent from feeling the devastating loss of that flame going out) I say that you pushed me away to protect yourself. I say that all you've known is loss and pain and that your nervous system can't handle having me back. I tell myself that we both know now is not the right time, and that your abandonment only happened because you wanted to protect the last bit of flame you still hold for me. I say that you're holding that flame the way I'm holding mine, in secret hopes that one day we can hold each others hearts without breaking them. We've both been too clumsy with each others glass hearts, and we're paying for that right now.
By Jayni Cole27 days ago in Confessions
Word of the Day: 推薦
I am looking at my Patreon plan, It isn't quite finished, I might need that for tomorrow. Yea.. it is really crap that I have to go to school tomorrow but, I feel like if I don't go to school at least once a week, my mom will fuck my shit up.
By Kayla McIntosh27 days ago in Confessions
Word of the Day: 年寄
I could have sworn that I already had a page open. I guess I am more keen on writing right now because I can't see anything right now. I mean I do have all these great ideas for art and such but half of my stuff is still packed in the suitcase and the other is sprawled out on the floor.
By Kayla McIntosh28 days ago in Confessions
what i should have said
follow-up to what i'll never get to say — top story, october 2025 no. when my husband asked me if you were someone he needed to worry about, i should have just said no and left it alone. but some part of my brain reads things like these as dares. and for all my strength, i am as weak to my own witless urges as the next impulse-impaired adult. it screamed "prove it" until i did something drastic and reached out to you.
By Maia Gadwall the metAlchemist28 days ago in Confessions
Word of the Day: 実習
Well my teacher did an impromptu zoom meeting with me which I really appreciated. Basically wrang me a new one very nicely about how I need to get my homework in. I am pretty sure I can actually do it now that I see what her methods are and the 3 channels she mostly uses so, that will make navigating things a lot easier as I wasn't sure where to look most of the time.
By Kayla McIntosh28 days ago in Confessions
