Secrets
Something I’ve been meaning to tell you
I don’t know where quite to begin with or something I really have to tell you ,you’re not gonna believe this I find it hard to believe myself but it happened and when I tell you I want you to just consider how hard this outcome was for me to tell you . It all happened 10 years ago you thought that I was your same boy that you had that you raised not exactly true, this Mother’s Day on the rise I figured it’s time to tell you something I’ve been holding since that day in the hospital and I had that car accident. You could say that I can hear better than any person also I can hear better than any dog and you remember I would not want to go out at night specially during a full moon and I always made up some type of excuse not to donate my blood to those blood donations we had at school . Well the truth is I don’t know whether or not I have blood anymore in my veins or if I really have veins what I’m trying to say is that I am not human anymore I’m not sure if the real me is even still around but when I had an accident I went to the hospital they said they couldn’t do anything now I just have to live as a crippled for the rest of my life that is something that I couldn’t do I just couldn’t see living like that so there was somebody there that did experimental surgeries and he took me and said that he could make me walk again make my left side move again but it would just cost some thing that I would have to give up mean in my humanity. I don’t get sick anymore not like humans do anyways and my brain is faster than it ever has been the one reason being is that my brain is now an IBM yeah exactly right it’s now a computer yeah I still have memories of my life when I was human but now that my brain is computer the rest of my body cybernetic not only that but it’s mixed with a synthetic looking skin that’s made from a regenerative plant every time it gets cut it’s able to heal on its own. I don’t know if this feels good I’m telling you this always makes me feel like a failure because I didn’t tell you this before I don’t know why I waited so long to get this out but I just figured you had to know. So they get back on track my life now it’s just on full throttle everything and I am seeing doing touching‘s like it’s happening for the first time and moving fast faster than I ever thought I could handle but being a computer it’s just amazing on what I can do , and it’s definitely helping because I’m not afraid to do anything I don’t have a fear anymore but I’m thinking more logically now and how this can better impact my life I want I can do and what I can’t do. The strength the feel of the raw of power that I hold is amazing , i’m never gonna want to let this end but I had to let you know you have to know specially what I’m gonna be doing next to wonder how that even happen if I’m still alive but to let you know I am alive I can’t die I don’t even think it’s possible for me to die anymore looks like I can live forever. Well there we go that’s the whole gist of it that’s who I am now I should say that’s what I am now and with this new body and ability I’m going to be doing things that I never did before in my life I’m gonna make something of myself and that starts today so just keep an eye on the news and when you see things that seem impossible just remember that your son doing those things and I’ll always be out there trying to find a way to find my humanity or maybe to make others like me .
By Danny Atwood4 years ago in Confessions
To My Mother: Things long unsaid.
Hey Mom, I've never told you this before... * Smiles* There's a lot I haven't told you before despite our closeness. . I remember telling my friends of our close relationship and how they'd gush and say I was lucky to be living every African teenage girl's dream. In a way, I was. But this closeness had a small tick. I'd see and hear so much that'd put my young heart in unending turmoil. Parents usually try to shield their children from these things, but I was your best friend, and you had no one else to talk to. I'll start small though because writing this is making me such an emotional mess.
By Two Siblings4 years ago in Confessions
Contemporary Afternoon Tea. Top Story - May 2022.
Dear mom, 2018 Afternoon Tea at Lady Bedford's in 2018. Picture by author We attend Afternoon Tea at Lady Bedford’s Tea Parlour as part of our mother-daughter outings. You were nervously suspended in a world of dainty china in a shop that held an air of aristocracy. We melted right in with the hosts’ explanation of the menu and selection of loose leaf teas. Our fingers nabbed soft scones slathered with clotted cream off the three-tiered tray that held sides of strawberry jam and tart lemon curd. We ate crunchy tempura shrimp and a variety of finger sandwiches and miniature confections. It all was topped off with sugar cubes twirled in cups of fragrant warm tea.
By Esmoore Shurpit4 years ago in Confessions
Those That Wish Me Dead
My life will never be the same, the city that I grew up in is unreconizable. Is it all planned or is this how society evolves. I understand a little bit of riff raff, but you can't even walk down the street in some part's. The government warns us about other countries and how dangerous they're. Ha, that's a joke I tell you. Have you ever heard of an individual playing soccer with a man's head he just decapitated in a local park.
By Mike P4 years ago in Confessions
Mommy Dearest,
Mommy dearest, I have quite a few things to say in this letter to you. A few sad, scary, and downright disappointing things. I do want to start by saying that I love you, and I pray to whatever gods will listen, that you never actually read or come across this piece of writing.
By FindingYourFlowers4 years ago in Confessions
Mary's Confession
Dear Mom, I know this is a little late, you being dead and all, but there’s something I want to get off my chest before they put you in the ground and I never see you again. Maybe they’ll even let me put this letter in your coffin, who knows?
By Raenie Nielsen4 years ago in Confessions
The mother's day that should have been.
Hey mom. There is this secret I have been holding in for a very long time. I think about telling you and crying on your shoulder but I am afraid. I am so afraid that you will lose your respect for me and knowing what I did would hurt you.
By Violet Starling4 years ago in Confessions
FASHIONABLE
AND YOU WOULD NOT BELIEVE you could do it. Trusting others more than those coming up under your rule and the rule established before you, the grandparents of all American church guidance. Yet, there you sit wrapped in awe and summation of the total reunion attendees' disbelief.
By CarmenJimersonCross4 years ago in Confessions
My Confession
Dear Mama, I started writing again!, and joined a platform that gives all types of challenges to its participants. It's fun pushing myself to write in different styles, or with different prompts, or just closing my eyes and letting my fingers fly over the keyboard like I used to do in my teenage years before that dreaded day when Writer's Block struck hard.
By Laura4 years ago in Confessions
Hey Mom. I never told you this before but...
Hey Mom. I never told you this before but I got a secret job when I turned 18. The day after my 18th birthday, I started applying for every open job I could find and you encouraged me to do so. But it seemed no one wanted me. Apparently, I didn't have enough “work experience'' to work anywhere. I tried for days and days, filling out applications and trying to make a resume, but no one wanted to hire me. I know it makes no sense, but that was my situation. Anyways I wanted a job, no, I needed a job, so I found one, just not one you’d approve of. I know in a million years you still would have told me not to do this, so I had to do it in secret. My first job was actually me selling feet pics on the internet. Now, this was before Tik Tokers tried to normalize it, and advise people everywhere to try this, so there was a better market for it then. I know what you're thinking but it really wasn’t anything weird, I mean maybe a little… but I never did anything that made me uncomfortable. And I made enough money to support myself for a time. I posted a picture on Instagram of me and my friend at the beach, this was a full-body picture, head to toe. Also, side note, since I’m being honest, I didn’t have my Instagram on private, meaning that anyone could see the pictures that I posted. Later that night, a few hours after my beach pic was posted, I got a DM, a direct message, from some guy offering me 200$ to send him close-up feet pics. At first, I was weirded out and thought it was a prank, but then he cash-apped me 50$ to show that he was in fact serious. He promised the remaining balance if I would send him a picture of my feet. So … I did. I propped up my freshly pedicured feet, took a few pictures, chose the best one and sent it. A few minutes later, 150$ was sent to me and that was the beginning of my feet picture career. I always kept my feet and toes in the best conditions. I constantly exfoliated and moisturized. I used to get pedicures weekly, to ensure the best product for my customers. And every customer is different in what they want. There are different nail color preferences, different preferred angles, and different levels of cleanliness of how your feet should look. So I would message them and ask them what they wanted my feet pictures to look like. I know you're probably freaking out but I never sent anything inappropriate or got myself into dangerous situations. It was strictly feet pictures in exchange for money. And I think if you had the chance mom you would do the same thing! HAHA! I always wanted to tell you this because I feel so close and open with you but I just knew you would judge me! I’m older now, so I’m not worried. If someone is willing to pay me for my feet, why wouldn't I take advantage of that? I later got my cashier job but I still think it was easier to sell feet pictures on the internet. I have to be honest, I was not meant for 9-5 so I had to be creative and the opportunity landed in my lap. And it was good for a time so I don’t regret it but that is my big secret! Anyways, I love you mom and I’ll talk to you later!
By Krista Cross4 years ago in Confessions
Goals, GOALS, Goals
GOALS! That is the story of my life, rearranging goals and creating new ones to replace the forgotten (on purpose). I created so many goals for myself this year and I am trying to realign with the initial ones by doing check ins every once in a while. I typically do this to avoid my own work (bad habit but necessary one) and today happens to be that day.
By Chantel4 years ago in Confessions
