Humanity
Dear me from 10 years ago
Dear 11 Year Old Me You must be very confused about who you are. But it is okay because you are very young and you are still figuring out who you are. You are falling in love with some kid that you will not talk to anymore in a couple of years but that is okay. The reason behind that is because you learned a lot from it and some things you did not. You learned what true friendship was and how it was to be loved. What you did not learn was to stop pushing people away. You have to work on that. I know you are very insecure about your glasses and how you dress and how you do your hair. But you should not be because doing all that made you realize how bad you dress and now you dress so much better. Also, its okay to dress bad because everyone else did and you are only expressing yourself and that is how people remember you and honestly the way you look is one of my favorite memories of you. Do not be afraid to try new things even if you have never done it before because honestly you will regret them in the future and you will always think about it no matter how small it was. You will have a lot of regrets when you were older. Also remember that even if you try something new and it does not go according to plan, please do not let it make you upset. You need to experience new things in order to learn what not to do and be more experienced. Do not fall in love to quickly, you have a lot to work on yourself, and chasing after boys will make it harder on you. If they like you, they will come after you, do not chase after them. If someone really cares about you, they will be there for you and not leave you hanging. You do not know how to be treated yet and I know no one has taught us but it will take us some time. I am telling you it is going to be hard figuring out you should be treated but you will do it. Go out with your friends please, I know there were times where I was scared to go out with my friends and I regret it so please stop being scared, you will have fun and you will make so many memories. Please I swear to god do not be insecure. That is the one thing that takes over your life and you do not do a lot of things because of it. It will take over your life, even right now, ten years later, you are still working on it. Just do not care about what other people think about you and just be yourself. Learn how to drive as soon as you can, i swear it has been ten years and you still do not know. Girl, get your license and stop being a chicken. As you grow older you will think of things you want to do and not do them. One of them will be staying in band, you should do it. Who knows, maybe you will like it. Also, pay more attention in school, I know you heard it so many times but you will need it for high school and college. I am going to be a hypocrite for saying this because I still do it but get off your phone more often and go out and do fun things. Lastly, just love yourself and do not ever be insecure.
By Vanessa Baltazar4 years ago in Confessions
The Vibe Podcast
I have always had a wild life and something told me to prepare myself. All of the sudden I wanted a guitar, then I began to research Podcast equipment and it all kinda happened. What I didn’t expect was to lose nearly everything and everyone. I had no idea I was surrounded by so many abusers and haters. I am thankful God prepared me for this through my baptism in 2017. No way would I be able to handle such betrayal. I have always been protective of myself and my name. I even changed my son’s last name to Costas because I raised him on my own. But something happened to me mentally when Biden took over, this stimulus money we were getting didn’t feel right so I decided to invest in myself and applied to have The Vibe Podcast trademarked. The purpose of the show is to teach how spirituality, culture and music saved my life. I want to teach that you can heal from trauma naturally and beautifully plus I want to tell you some of my wild and funny stories. Storytelling makes me happy, sometimes I co-host with my son. Sometimes he hosts episodes by himself, I couldn’t have accomplished this goal without my children. My daughter Mia is my inspiration to do better every day, because of her I have moved mountains and I know her future is bright. My son Gabe has turned into my protector and has evolved beautifully in this process. Because he’s so down for his mother without hesitation, he will be blessed. His grades have improved miraculously since we began our Spiritual Journey in February, has not been easy but I know our sacrifices will be worth it one day. My wish is to be a fulltime writer, the podcast actually belongs to my children as they are more artistic than me but hustling is my game. I suffer so they won’t have to so I put in my blood, sweat and tears into the project. Gabe is a gifted artist and we have dreams of coming out with an animated series more details on that coming soon! Mia is a very hands on type of kid, she likes DIY’s so I can’t wait to get into merchandise ideas with her! Our future is bright. I am forever proud of myself for deciding to trademark the company because boy the things and people that have been revealed to me have been unreal to say the least. So unreal that I must share our story in an effort prevent this kind of treatment to any other human being ever again. Children do not ask to be born so it is up to us parents to give them our best shot towards a bright and happy future for our Angels. We recently wrapped up Season 1 of The Vibe Podcast and all I can say is Wow.. I think of the song by Kanye West; Through the Wire and it reminds me of me. Some episodes I must admit are short and the sound quality lacked in some episodes lol but even through the wire we still pulled through and gave our best shot. These episodes were recorded while I was out of a job for three months with no income, while breaking away from toxic people and being taken to court. Also lost temporary custody of my daughter. We are currently working to get a sense of normalcy and I am a firm believer of justice and I know the truth will set me free. I used this time away from my daughter to hustle hard. This time for my life, through the wire we continued recording. A publisher has since reached out to me and I am working on my first book! I am now a blogger and I am loving how life is going. The only thing that’s missing is my little girl. We have our visits and thank God for FaceTime but every thing happens for a reason. When things don’t go my way I thank God for the chastisement because it’s another opportunity to do better. My hopes is that I have made my daughter proud as it is my honor to have changed my life to honor my beloved father’s memory and for my children’s sake. No way could I allow any of them to suffer even remotely in the ways I have. I needed to heal properly in order for me to become the person God destined me to be. Now I have lots of stories to share as a result! I am thankful for all of the blessings I have received and it’s an honor to share our story of healing naturally. We hope to return for more stories on the podcast sometime in early 2022! In the meantime check out The Vibe Podcast! Available on many platforms! You will see my mug! Thank you for reading and enjoy the vibe!
By The Vibe Podcast 4 years ago in Confessions
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A Nun Barred Me from Interviewing Abuse Victims
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By Josephine Crispin4 years ago in Confessions
Never Healed
When I was 15 and my sister - 12, my step-father, a kindest man with a huge heart but exhausted will to fight his alcoholism addiction, hung himself in our bathtub. Two days before my mom’s birthday, one day after his own. My mother was working that day, and thought he was just sleeping off his hangover after celebrating with his buddies. She started to worry when he did not answer the phone or knocks on the door and left the key in the lock turned from the inside so that no one could open it from the outside. One of our male neighbors found him by climbing a tree to our 2nd floor apartment’s balcony. My step-father used my sister's jumping rope, hindging it on a clothesline hook. Neither me nor my sister were allowed to see him in all the commotion of removing the body when we came home from the infamous Soviet subbotniks (Saturday community clean-up days). That’s how I’ll always remember it happened on a Saturday. My mom did not allow us to go to his funeral either.
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Don't be a part of the problem
I sat back and looked at my computer screen in disbelief. What the fuck is going on. 32 applicants. No, not for some scholarship or job opening. 32 applicants to take over my lease. That's a great number, right? Except, all of them have ghosted or have been rejected.
By v4 years ago in Confessions
Taking off the masks
Earlier this year, I got divorced. I chose the divorce and walked out of a 10 year marriage and an 11 year relationship. It was one of the hardest choices I've ever made and it was the start of a journey that's involved me rediscovering the real me.
By Taylor Ellwood4 years ago in Confessions
Mead & Chicken Legs
How could they be out of chicken legs? One of the biggest events in Pennsylvania that spans several weekends in the fall, and they run out of chicken legs?? Regardless if it was my first time at this event, I felt robbed of the experience because they ran out of chicken legs! I had to settle for mac-&-cheese and a ham and cheese baguette sandwich instead, which both were still delicious and satisfying enough. But, I suppose when you have hundreds to thousands of people attending this event over the course of the several weekends it takes place, you're going to run out of things.
By Nicole Fenn4 years ago in Confessions
Am I alone
I feel so alone at this very moment. I do not even know how to express myself to others. All I want to do is scream and cry. Make everyone feel the pain I feel. But its not everyone’s pain to feel. So maybe that is why I am having so much trouble with expression.
By Amanda Ames4 years ago in Confessions
I've Realized That However Hard You try — You Can Never Fully Satisfy a Woman.
“You will never be satisfied, will you?”, my father used to ask my mum. Whatever he tried to do for her, she always wanted more. Before I was born, my mother was a lawyer and supposedly she didn’t want that career path anymore, instead, she wished to focus more time on her children — my older sisters.
By Oberon Von Phillipsdorf4 years ago in Confessions
