Kayla McIntosh
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Personal tell-all pieces: Word of the Day and Jail Journal. Secret poet on the side. ( I don't use Ai to write any posts, everything is done manually. )
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Word of the Day: 嘆き
I am on a new page, I shouldn't be writing still, I am way motivated to actually do my homework, there is no point in me stalling the inevitable. But there is this really annoying fly that keeps going across the screen, but it seems to have stopped as soon as I wrote about it.
By Kayla McIntosh3 months ago in Confessions
Word of the Day: 芸術
I have been abnormally tired all day which was not a good thing. I am certain I am going to start my period with vengeance for being late. As I have explained before, I don't get cramps or other symptoms so much but my energy is completely stolen from me, and that is exactly how I am feeling today, I just haven't bled yet.
By Kayla McIntosh3 months ago in Confessions
Word of the Day: 寝技
I am completely drained today. I told Reo that, I was doubting our relationship going forward as, I feel like he doesn't understand my needs and actually gave me pressure during a stressful time. I mean, he is busy as well, and I can understand that with the gaps between replies but, what he does reply with isn't satisfactory enough to keep my attention really. I feel like... I am alone. And I mean, when I was with Kenta, who lives all the way in Japan, I didn't feel alone with him. If you feel alone in your mind, you're alone.
By Kayla McIntosh3 months ago in Confessions
Word of the Day: 専門
I am glad my aunt gave me this computer. It is only good for school, but I guess I appreciate it the monster. Ah I am channeling now. I am feeling negative energy and then when I look at the katakana I notice I made a mistake. I should've wrote katakana.
By Kayla McIntosh3 months ago in Confessions
Word of the Day: 一次関数
I really need to be working on my homework but I got like, two more vocal entries according to my todo list so I want to take advantage of that and use them completely to settle myself down. I am loving that the algorithm decided that hip hop violin music is my jam now. I really do feel it is, that sophistication with a slight edge.
By Kayla McIntosh3 months ago in Confessions
Word of the Day: 頼もしい
I am starting to both love and hate that I am back into learning Japanese. As I look at the tv screen, I realize that I am living a double life with the fact that I am lying about doing weed. I... No. I have to believe in my self and my own actions. I have to understand my purpose though. And that sounds so existential.. I really like Japanese but I think my purpose is my writing here... Or maybe it is all I can afford at the moment. I want to enjoy my time.... afford, yes. I am poor as fuck and can't afford anything right now, not even time.
By Kayla McIntosh3 months ago in Confessions
Word of the Day: 劣等生
I already wrote this but it got deleted for some reason. I just want to destress before I have to spend the rest of the day ( literally the rest of the day ) just studying Math and Japanese. Mostly math though since I have that pesky test tomorrow.
By Kayla McIntosh3 months ago in Confessions
Word of the Day: 優等生
I accidentally drank too much last night and threw up in the shower ( I cleaned it up afterwards but..) It happened because I bought alcohol instead of weed because I didn't have enough for delivery ( your order has to equal 40+ dollars to enable delivery ) and it already got sort of late/passed the delivery window and I didn't want to walk to the store to buy some directly so I thought I could just do that. Big mistake.
By Kayla McIntosh3 months ago in Confessions
Word of the Day: へとへと
I am in Japanese class and the Japanese teacher is scolding everyone about the test. I am correcting everyone's wrong answer they are blurting out while writing this so I am like, just not in the mood. I understand her frustration though, I mean I don't really get to practice Japanese anywhere except with Yukki san, but he is talking in a stream and it is just.. yea.
By Kayla McIntosh3 months ago in Confessions
Word of the Day: おばさん
I don't really need to write anything but I think I want to just get used to sitting at the dining table again to work on homework. I need to work on the presentation tomorrow but I am trying to follow my todo list faithfully and it says that homework is up next.
By Kayla McIntosh3 months ago in Confessions
