trauma

At its core, trauma can be thought of as the psychological wounds that persist, even when the physical ones are long gone.

life after a traumatic event of an active shooter
I just moved to Florida and I started working for amazon in August 11th 2020, I worked nights cause I thought if I worked night I wouldn’t have to deal with people... well I was wrong big time, I was on my way to work on Oct. 3rd 202 and I stopped at a gas station to get petrol (Gas) in Lakeland Fl.. I started filling up my tank on my car.. I heard a lot of yelling and I looked around the corner near the pumps and I heard her yelling grab him she said to me to grab her bf because he was chasing the shooter that shot into a vehicle that had 8 people in it.. I had no idea what I just walked into... and I started checking on people seeing if there ok and a Girl was shot in the back... I have been trained for that type of situation but have never been in one till now.. it was really scary I had to miss work and answer questions from law enforcement... they couldn’t find the shooter and I hope that kid get thrown in Jail big time.. also I hope that girl who was shot is healing up and is ok... I didn’t get home till 7 in the morning because of what happened, I have a hard time going to gas stations because of what happened.. I don’t sit near windows nor my back to the door.. I don’t know why I do that now.. Lately I have been having nightmare about that whole ordeal.. I wake up in a sweat and breathing hard... I listen to classical music now and more because every time I hear a sound I go and investigate.. I wouldn't say I am paranoid but if you have ever been in that situation then you know where I am coming from.. I watch people’s hands and movements more than ever because of it... I check my surrounding a lot and my aunt thinks I am going crazy and she is like you are protected.. she has never been in that situation. but believe me if you have been in that situation how did it effect you???...
By Jessi Small- Price5 years ago in Psyche
My life story
This is how it began... I had always been a shy kid and that left me vulnerable. I’d let people walk all over me and I was too scared to stand up for myself. And that’s when it happened.
By Natalie5 years ago in Psyche
XYKOLOGY
”HELLO!” “WHO’S THERE?” “JAZIA” “WHO? I do not know no Jazia!” “Well I know you!” “Who and a what and how?” “Look. Listen. Feel.”
By Jazia Tara5 years ago in Psyche
I Wish I’d Never Been Born
Memories aren’t always good. The things I remember mostly were never good . Trauma embeds itself deep within your mind . It’s always there and until you figure out a way to let it go then it will remain there. When someone hurts you that’s suppose to love you , It causes you to question everything you know about love. I remember feeling real insecure, and timid when I was hurt the first time. A parent can do even more damage to their child just with the words they say above anything else . Bruises will eventually fade , but the words you say will last forever.
By Betsy Jane Hiatt5 years ago in Psyche
An Open Letter to My Family
Do you remember this little girl? This sweet girl who deserved love, who deserved to be cared for. This little girl who deserved to be protected. This little girl who grew up to have PTSD and anxiety and crippling mental issues because her family didn't protect her.
By Tawny Skye5 years ago in Psyche
The six stages
I grew up the youngest of a blended family, between my mom and dad it was just me, on my fathers side he has a daughter, my mother side she has a son and daughter making it four of us.
By SMc5 years ago in Psyche
Sharing My Experience
As a 19-year-old, I may not have as many stories as others sharing about their mental health. Unfortunately, my trauma started early, so early that I'm not even really sure when it started.
By Kayleigh5 years ago in Psyche
Broken
A girl broken girl . It all happened 6years ago, and I can recall everything that happened on that fateful day. Growing up, I never felt loved . I didn’t really experience what love felt like.
By Elizabeth Okosun5 years ago in Psyche
The Girl That Chaos Built
Merriam-Webster defines chaos as a state of utter confusion. At some point in all our lives, we've experienced it. Since the beginning of time, it has laced its existence throughout lives and events. Whether its running late everyday and feeling like you have no grip on your time or just flat out feeling insane, we've all been there.
By Sea Goodwin5 years ago in Psyche
The Other Side of Fear
To quote Drew Barrymore in one of my favorite movies, Never Been Kissed, "To write well, you have to write what you know." Well, this is what I know. I abandoned myself a long long time ago when I was a child. I thought that was the only way to protect myself from the sexual abuse, from the fighting, from the neglect, from the ridicule, and from "being too much." Thing is, what I thought was protection was anything but. It was damaging and programming my subconscious mind to believe I wasn't worthy or good enough to be loved. I now know that those are lies and that way of thinking was teaching me self hatred. Always just going along with what others wanted so that I could be accepted. Then throwing a fit when I couldn't take it anymore. Dr. Nicole LePera said, "Emotional abandonment in childhood makes us desperate to be chosen in adulthood." Oh how I felt that. When I woke up to a world where humanity has been destroying itself from the inside out for many many years, I felt it for the rest of humanity too. Living life in the past keeps evolution and growth of our species at bay, to make human puppets more malleable. I was taught that we learn history so we don't repeat the mistakes of the past and while I believe learning history is important, it doesn't change past mistakes if we humans don't also change. We are the reason history repeats itself.
By Krystal 5 years ago in Psyche
A Story Of Trauma Passed Down - Love In All The Wrong Places
I lost my virginity at 13 years old on a leather couch in my friend's basement. It was the middle of the week, after school, in grade 8, I just casually had sex with a fellow classmate. I can clearly remember why I did it and it wasn't raging hormones, I actually didn't really want to have sex at all ( I was not raped, I consented) but rather to feel closeness. I wanted to feel like I was special and like I was important, you know, all eyes on me kind of thing. I thought If I gave something as special away as my virginity, then I would be seen as special in someone else's eyes. Then I may really matter to someone else.
By Amanda Giroux5 years ago in Psyche
The Pain of Leaving a Narcissist is Horrific and Temporary.
At first it is catastrophic, out of focus, indecisive, zombie-like, verge of tears or crying. Fragile, skittish anxiety meets lethargic lack luster existence, hyper vigilant paranoia and self doubt, constant bombardment of self defeating thoughts, inability to experience enjoyment, shaking in terror. Obsessively rehashing past conversations seeking understanding, bottomless grief. This is what we experience in the wake of narcissistic abuse. It eventually leaves our lives if we give ourselves adequate space and time to heal. In order to heal we need to dive right into the pain. We cannot get through it without first getting into it.
By Andrea B Wainer5 years ago in Psyche