depression

It is not just a matter of feeling sad; discover an honest view of the mental, emotional and physical toll of clinical depression.

The Story of She
Today would mark her eight years. Eight years since she reached the darkest point. Eight years since she turned around. Eight years since she said, "No more."
By Mel Leigh8 years ago in Psyche
5 AM City Lights
She belonged to the city. Her heart burned for the city lights and for her nothing was prettier than empty streets and cold wind and lights shining over her skin at 5 AM. Walking until her feet hurt, discovering new coffee shops and just sitting down at a bench and watching people get lost in their busy lives when she just let her mind wonder. Her world was a mess, so she lost herself in a wonderland of madness. Madness that was put together with skyscrapers, high heels and brief cases clinging and swinging as free spirits protested with their shirts off. She was a wanderer.
By Zeynep Kivanc8 years ago in Psyche
The Truth About PPD
The feeling you have during pregnancy, of fullness and joy, doesn't always stick after the baby is born. When I was pregnant with my son, it was the happiest time in my life. After having multiple miscarriages, all I could think about was what a miracle this was. I couldn't believe I was finally going to have the baby I had always wanted. I had longed so long to be a mother and share a special bond with a tiny human I had created. All this joy just filled my body and soul. Even though my pregnancy wasn't the easiest, I was still so engulfed with joy. Feeling him kick me and have the hiccups was the best thing in the world. I couldn't wait to finally kiss and hug and hold this little boy that I had waited nine long months to meet.
By jade hewes8 years ago in Psyche
Bigger Than Band-Aids
Imagine a factory. Clean, as if you could hear a single speck of dust hitting the cold, concrete ground. The rhythm of the methodical processes; a sound that assures you that all the parts of the process are functioning correctly. A line of small packages travel down the line as if coasting on a thin layer of ice. The packages approach a fork in their path; while most continue, a few fall into a long, dark metallic void.
By Diana8 years ago in Psyche
The Day I Broke Up with My Mental Illness
As a kid, I knew I was different. It started one summer when my best friend from across the street came over to play. Our days never seemed to stopped. Sprinklers under trampolines followed by pudding popsicles and frozen waffles. Slip n’ slides and wet grass and sunscreen. Endless days and sleepless nights. Summer was the best time of our lives. But not this summer. I couldn’t. My brain and body could not. I laid in my dark room for hours at a time running my hands over the silk sheets wondering what was wrong with me.
By Tabitha Shiloh8 years ago in Psyche
Fear of Being Alone
Recently I discovered my fear of being alone. I have been afraid to be alone in terms of romantic relationships. I think I've always known this to some degree but it became abundantly clear to me when I found myself staying in a bad relationship. Anyway that is another story, the recent discovery though is how scared I am of being alone with my thoughts and I have subconsciously always found ways to avoid long periods of just thinking and this is what I believe to have been the gateway to my debilitating depression.
By Yedzayi Nenjerama8 years ago in Psyche
Postpartum Depression
POSTPARTUM DEPRESSION IS MORE REAL THAN THE AIR I BREATHE. Depression is lonely, but postpartum depression is isolation and guilt. It’s so taboo that the thought of a discussion scares you into silence. If I talk about it will they take my baby away? If I admit what I’m actually feeling will they think I’m a bad mom and not fit to be a parent? Should I speak up or should I stay quiet? Postpartum isn’t only after the baby is born, it can start during pregnancy. Hormones are your enemy during and after pregnancy. It feels like they want to kill me. I must fake a smile and go on.
By Alicia Leon8 years ago in Psyche
Depression Doesn't Have to be Postpartum!
Yes, I just recently had a baby. Yes, I’m depressed as fuck. No, I DO NOT have postpartum depression. Postpartum Depression is depression suffered by a mother following childbirth, typically arising from the combination of hormonal changes, psychological adjustment to motherhood, and fatigue. I’m already a mother, so there’s not much of a psychological adjustment needed there, and sure I’m tired and fatigued, but I was more tired and fatigued before the baby was born due to a pregnancy induced liver disease (Intrahepatic Cholestasis of Pregnancy, or ICP for short) that made me constantly itch all over my body. I actually sleep better now that the baby is born. Oh yes, the hormones are plenty, but they aren’t all bad. Oxytocin isn’t bad. The hormones are not making me depressed either, although I blame those for the waterworks that occur during sappy commercials and the sentimental sadness I experience when I think about my babies growing up on me.
By Jessa Mae8 years ago in Psyche
How We All Live in a Depressed World
Those days you wake up and would like to scream but realise you have no voice so an inner voice from inside yourself screams itself allowing yourself to feel better. This situation does not allow yourself to leave but you really have to be strong enough to allow it to leave. It is like you do not want it to leave but then you do. It all starts off with a feeling of slight loneliness which you try to erase. However, after a few days you realise there is nothing to erase as it was not just a thought but a true fact. This intense feeling makes you believe that there is no one and that you are truly alone. Alone from the inside of your heart to the outside of your soul. It is hard to believe but this feeling comes to a lot of people once in a lifetime and it is about time to share this feeling with the entire world. People experiencing depression will relate to this because it will allow yourself to awaken as it is not the best place to be in at any point of your life. You start to question everything in your entire life, the good that you have done and the bad that you have committed. When deep down you know that good is good and bad is bad but you still end up questioning the good to make yourself feel better. Sadly, it does not work and you start to realise that nothing in this entire life makes you feel happy. This feeling can occur to anyone at any age and its very depressing when you are young and have to go through all this. I guess it is a sad fact that allows you to understand the concept of reality.
By Z K8 years ago in Psyche
Mercury Retrograde: The Good, The Bad and The Truth!
Have you ever wondered if the planets could actually have an affect on your life? It's not as far-fetched as one might think it is. Mercury is more than just a mysterious planet in the far away galaxy. Even though Mercury is an average distance of 48 million miles (77 kilometers) from Earth, it's presence is felt by all of the people that are living on planet Earth.
By Silena Le Beau8 years ago in Psyche
My Struggle with Postpartum Depression
Acknowledging what you don't want to be there is something none of us want to do. Mental illnesses being one of the main things we don't want to believe was there.
By Brookelynn Redden8 years ago in Psyche
Want What You Don't Want
I am the definition of “a Jack of all trades, and a master of none.” While all the people around me seemingly fall into their perfect jobs, relationships, financial situations, or whatever it may be; I’m constantly running around like a chicken with it’s head cut off. Always doing damage control on the fires I start, in all areas of my life. Apparently, I’m careless about where I throw my used cigarette butts.
By Annie Storwick8 years ago in Psyche