depression
It is not just a matter of feeling sad; discover an honest view of the mental, emotional and physical toll of clinical depression.
Dealing with Mental Health
In the shower I was lathering up with a smile on my face. The bubbles rose from the surface of the sponge and floated gently to the bathtub floor as I attempted to pop them. I was content from the warm steam surround me and what I felt to be the best decision of my life. I decided to finally kill myself that weekend. After years of self hatred and declining faith in my abilities to handle being a functional adult, I decided the best course of action was a bottle of hard liquor and whatever pills I could find in my parents' bedroom. It had been a long time coming but I suspected it would reach this point sooner or later. How did it start? Well, that is hard to say.
By Kendall Earl7 years ago in Psyche
My Dark World
When I had my first memory, I knew it wasn't going to be easy. Despite what everyone told me about how beautiful life was, I had a different view. I had my heart broken when I was so young. Not by a boy, but by the cruelness of the world that I'm living in. I'm living in a world where people think that if you are different then you are not accepted in society. If you are different, no matter how smart you are you'll never go anywhere.
By LifeWithOut Sun7 years ago in Psyche
Mom - Me - I
I am a 27 year old woman who is just trying to get through life. At 10 years old, I lost my father to atherosclerosis; he was 39. It was a shock, to say the least. I got through it by eating out almost every day with my mother and living with my grandparents for a couple of months. I also never gave up on school, put myself into my work, friends, and movies. I loved movies!! Still do.
By Victoria Kerr7 years ago in Psyche
Things I Have Learned from Having Depression
Well let me tell you one thing I learned, it hits you kind of like a train. I mean there are people out there that have a buildup and can try and stop it before it gets worse. But when I mean hits you like a train, you could be really happy and be having a good time until BAM you are super sad, you feel like a bother and you can't keep your thoughts strait. The way I manage to help this is always text someone immediately and tell them that you need help. If they are busy do not let the thoughts of 'oh they don't care' seep into your mind because when that happens, you feel even worse. Just keep looking for someone to talk to. If everyone is busy with work or school, call the depression hotline. I will leave their number at the bottom, so if you ever need to talk to someone, even if you think it is stupid, they will listen.
By Hayley Ferreira7 years ago in Psyche
Smashing the Glass
I often feel like people don't realize you're depressed unless there are obvious signs that you're crying out for help... like if you aren't partaking in self harm, substance abuse, isolating yourself... etc, that everything in your life must be completely fine and you've totally got your shit together.
By Kelsey Park7 years ago in Psyche
Journal (May 18 - June 7, 2017)
May 18, 2017 Hello everyone, So the main topic I think I want to talk about today is the past. There are many things that happen in someone past. It can be good or bad. People in the 20th century judge others now by how they look, most of the time. There are some who don't, but they are the special ones. Me, I never judge someone by their look. I get to know them.
By Jasmin Eddy7 years ago in Psyche
Losing Your Sense of Urgency to Depression
Despite deadlines looming, barely any food in the fridge, medication dwindling, your depression brain wants to put everything off. Everything can wait. And even when the supplies do finally run out, it’s a mammoth effort to get up and out to re-stock. You reschedule tasks for the next day, and the next day; moving through each one at a snail’s pace that you can’t change. It’s like slogging through mud every day with a tired resignation that this is how it is until the depression begins to lift a little.
By Alicia Brunskill7 years ago in Psyche
Losing Myself
There wasn’t just a single event that led to that moment in my life. It was a collection of misfortune, impaired thinking, and defective genetics. Rarely am I upset about just one thing. I tend to bottle up my emotions, until it is too much. All someone has to do is open the bottle, and all my emotions flood out. I don’t remember what set me off that day—maybe it was a mistake I had made, something hurtful someone said, or I could have just woken up that way, but I don’t remember. I just remember the absolutely unendurable pain.
By Let Me Type7 years ago in Psyche
Waiting for the Rain Clouds
Winter is coming... it's a simple fact. We can't avoid it unless we move to a warm country to escape the harsh reality of it, but most of us don't have that luxury. So we stay. But it's not all about the snow and the cold, or the warm clothing that keep us from freezing. It's also about the sun. More specifically, the sunlight. If you're like me and live in the upper northern hemisphere of the world, you know what I mean. Long nights; short days. Now, if you're also like me, you know the consequences of the lack of sunlight, not just on your physical health, but mental as well. Depression. This is about that little grey cloud that happens to take over your life, and waiting for it to come to pass.
By Katharin Crewson7 years ago in Psyche
