Latest Stories

Most recently published stories in Psyche.

Me
I’m Hannah. I think I’m pretty boring but I don’t know what else to write about. Let’s start from the beginning. I was born two months early and weighed 3.5 pounds. Luckily, there was nothing really wrong with me. I was my parents’ first child. My only brother was born a year later. I don’t really remember anything from my first few years.
By Hannah Wantsfood8 years ago in Psyche
My Nineteen Years on Earth
Exactly six months ago I attempted, at the age of eighteen, to write my own book titled My Eighteen Years on Earth. I got half way through one chapter before I hit writer's block, and ultimately, gave up on my depressing novel. Since then I have regained the spark in which I had that first day I began my novel, and have decided to attempt my second try at a less depressing, but awfully truthful blog on how it is to live with depression starting from such a young age, and of course the usual teenage dramas.
By Denilia Blue8 years ago in Psyche
I've Been Quiet
Depression: Feelings of severe despondency and dejection. Despondency: A state of low spirits caused by loss of hope or courage
By Savanna Barnes8 years ago in Psyche
She Found Out I Wasn't Okay
The first time she found out I was hurting myself was on New Years Day. You can't see me but I just snorted. My family has a knack for never ending or starting the year right. I was maybe 13, and started at the age of 12 (or 11, I'm never sure anymore), so it had been a while when she first found out. Thirteen year-old me thought it was a great idea to take pictures of the cuts I cast upon myself, which was stupid. I was stupid. Maybe I didn't put a passcode on my iPod, or maybe I did and gave her the password, but she scrolled through the various pictures in my camera roll and saw. I didn't know she saw until she walked through our bedroom door with tears streaming down her face, and her smile replaced with anger.
By Ana Reyes8 years ago in Psyche
What is Borderline Personality Disorder?
Borderline Personality Disorder, also known as Emotionally Unstable Personality Disorder, is a mental health condition that is normally greeted with responses such as "What is that" or "My god, they're a train wreck."
By Shaye Goodenough8 years ago in Psyche
You Have Anxiety? Fuck You, You Anxious Wimp
I suffer from anxiety. I guess you could tell that from the title. It's a disease that is not acceptable, you see, I'm supposed to control myself, and act like a polite adult at all times. Those are my choices. It even takes doctors a period of time to say, "Hey chew that clonopin," yeah, Doc, I really need it because you see I feel like I could fucking really choke someone right now, but instead, I'll chew this pill... for your sake.
By Kimm Smith8 years ago in Psyche
Drowning
Sometimes, it all gets a little too much. The rage, the sadness, the helplessness. You think that you can control it, keep it under wraps, and go about your day with a forced smile plastered onto your face. You think that it is nothing, and that it will all be fine soon. You think that ignoring it all will solve it.
By Umamah Rehman8 years ago in Psyche
It Gets Better
Ever feel like nobody can relate to you? Like you're alone in this world? Like nothing you do matters? Feel as if the whole world hates you? And makes everything harder specifically for you? If so... you're not alone.
By Em8 years ago in Psyche
Diagnosis
Seven. Seven years old, and my first diagnosis appeared on my lap like an unwanted animal, begging for attention. I didn't know what ADHD was, or even if it was a real thing, and not just random letters in the alphabet. How was I to know that the reason for my constant "story telling," the way I always tapped my foot while the teacher was talking, or interrupting class just to say something that didn't even pertain to what was being taught, was my very own diagnosis?
By Angel Peugh8 years ago in Psyche
What Living with Depression and Anxiety Is Really Like
Imagine waking up every day with your first thought always being, "What kind of day am I going to have today?" The Anxiety Filter
By Myles Bowman8 years ago in Psyche
'Dear Evan Hansen': For Forever
The top hit musical Dear Evan Hansen has hit the hearts of so many people across the country. This show is so empowering and expresses so many important themes about love, friendships, and many more. I say this show is underrated. People need to watch this show, because of the huge impact it has on people of all ages.
By John Max Byrne8 years ago in Psyche
How Not to Die
When I was in my junior year of high school I started to be more anxious than usual. I began to have insomnia and since I was taking such hard classes and studying for my SATs I became very distant from myself and my needs. Eventually it got to a point where I would spend days without eating a proper meal or sleeping. I am only human, but in my obsession with being perfect I became so ill I was hospitalized for 10 days do to heart failure. My body gave up on me; the lack of food and sleep got me down to 84 pounds, which led to feeding tubes down my nose and painful needles everywhere. I didn’t want to accept it, I always thought this was just a coincidence and that I was fine, I just needed to get through the year and everything would go back to the way it was. However, as you can guess that wasn’t the case. I developed depression and became such a ghost of a person I stopped recognizing myself. This went on for over a year until it became so much for me I started to harm myself in many ways, no need to mention them, you can guess. I became obsessed with death and the peace I thought it would bring me. I planned it many times in my head, I even started leaving notes for my friends and family so they would have something to hold on to when I was no longer here. So, trust me when I say I know what it feels like to see no choice, no light whatsoever in the life you’re living. But take it from a survivor of such a horrible illness, you can make it through.
By Diana B8 years ago in Psyche