Will You Die Alone With Me

Life didn’t turn out the way I wanted

My best decisions left me haunted

With this idea that I was safer

away from those that make me waver

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You claimed to love me as I am

But alone never acted like a fan

Was it love or need for a companion

To please you, myself I did abandon

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Constantly questioning my use

Disdain turned to pain from your abuse

Lamed and drained

Barely remembering my own name

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So I don’t trust that I won’t be betrayed

Whether I leave or if I stayed

This way I can stay free

But still I ask you to die alone with me