Never Again

I fell for you once, had the hardest time getting back up.

Hit the ground with a thud, knocked out my taste buds.

Lost my craving for love, it became flavorless, tasteless.

Dare I say I became dateless as did everyone else. Plus…

Promised myself I’d never allow anyone to come close enough.

You got the best of me, played with me and now I’m scuffed.

From here on out my love is tough, and I call bluff,

On your so-called street smart, sweet talk, what’s the name for that? Oh right… Fluff.

Don’t hold your breath, I ain’t getting cuffed, you will get rebuffed.

You made me sharp, mind and heart like a double edge sword.

You better pray to the Lord; you don’t fall prey in my ward.

Cause my love no one can afford, and I take no prisoners as reward.

Don’t care how much I’m implored; I won’t sign no accord.

I don’t play no games, nor am I looking for a surname.

So please save face, let’s cut to the chase.

No feelings involved, free from blame or shame.

Just make sure that for the heart you don’t aim.

Unless you want pain, in a heartbeat your name,

I’ll jot down as an ex-flame.

I don’t have time to waste, nor do I hold the patience of a saint.

I’m not for the faint, wild and untamed,

But if you must know I carry a taint, scarlet letter, red color paint.

Before you I was doing so well,

Was the type that believed in fairytales, thought I’d be Belle.

Foolishly falling for a beast, under a love spell.

One day my story a charming tale, that my grandkids could tell.

But all those dreams you killed, all because you couldn’t tell,

For you I would have run a drug cartel.

Hid your skeletons in the closet of a hotel.

Gone to war no questions asked, been your spy and collected intel.

Sold my soul and gone to hell, anything you asked I would’ve fulfilled.

Difference of a confidant and just your girl, but, yet again the difference you still can’t tell.

And so, I’ve changed, I’ll never be the same.

I keep myself safe, avoid anything that reminds me of our days.

No “Babes” or “Heys”, just a phrase, I know but that’s how it starts always.

I’m too afraid, won’t let my love ablaze, although my friends say it’s just a phase.

Went from good girl to bad, I like to keep things superficial.

Because I got hurt so bad, and realized you were artificial.

Hold on I don’t know that, nah I’m playing, that’s me being civil or perhaps wishful.

Truth be told I’m independent, act indifferent, with zero fucks given.

Possibly a few hidden, but that ain’t none of your business. I know how to play my position.

And I’m in a competition to get over you, as if it were a mission.

Due to you my heart stifled; deep wounds left no chance of survival.

And thanks to you now all prospects are on trial,

Or is it because in my mind you’re unrivalled?

Damn I hate the truth…

I love everything about you including your flaws,

And for you I’d once again be willing to fall,

Even if that meant that there’d be a new scar.

Only to never again have to repeat it all,

With someone else whom overall of you is a shortfall.