Plainly

my scream did not pierce the sky in a crackling snap of a whip, it did not touch the heart of heaven nor did it make the ground tremble and scatter like a million fall leaves

No, plainly; I could not say anything to make you stay

Though my tears were filling up with breath that tasted like the Blues, it feels so bittersweet to use so many different colorful ways

That all mean that same exact feeling of love

I can still feel it even as I felt abandoned

Did you feel I abandoned you?

I felt it too hard for too long

I hoped with you it would be easier like a prayer we all said late at midnight

Plainly; you came in during my refugee years… I was far too quiet for far too long

I want to be like Nettie from The Color Purple

Nothing but death would keep me from you

Writing to you was second nature

Plainly; it was so easy to make sense of your metaphors of balm & honey & purple hills rolling down the old streets of your heart

Plainly, I can’t speak plainly it hurts too bad

It hurts too bad

It hurts too bad

& I take to bleeding inwardly like in Jane Eyre.