So right now it’s challenging.

Yes I lost my job. I was told that it would be happening to many people, where you think that it could happen to you but at the same time I guess not. But it really happened. You want to know how? I’ll tell you but first this.

I think it’s fair to say that we all don’t like the current climate, or at least a fair percentage of us think it’s not a nice situation we find ourselves in. Not being able to feel relaxed, feel free to touch, hug, kiss, hang out with one another. How is it that we have put ourselves in this situation, finding it difficult to be comfortable with life in the way it was before all this YOU KNOW WHAT.

Well once again for me it all boils down to what you believe. The world is all we know and the reason we are in the position we are is because we haven’t taken care of the planet, our atmosphere, our environment. Something that wasn’t a major issue before has become the foreground of our society. Would it be fair to say or consider that there is something wrong with us when we are inhabited by a disease which like all diseases kills us, in a different way, however death is still the result? Are we just hoping to live the life we want to live without being interrupted by a cancer, a tragedy, a discomfort of some sort or a pandemic?

Two questions already without an answer. Well like I said, all things do result in what you believe. We are here (on earth) by our own doing. Evolution, Creation, molecules responding by themselves, reacting solely, or created with a purpose, a reason, a choice. The recent or current state that we find ourselves cannot be a more evidential reason for one to consider the inevitable, no matter how random or selected that may be. Are you really prepared to live your life your own way without considering that just maybe, maybe there is a purposeful reason to why you are here?

I’ve been in and out of work a few times now and I’m not getting any younger the last time I checked. But like Martin Luther King said (I’m paraphrasing) ‘we all want to live a full life..’ well, I believe we do. When I say full I don’t mean being young and becoming very old. I mean full in the sense of living your life to the full, which for most young people is a wonderful opportunity, if you have that. But you can be reasonably old and still enjoy a full life whatever that means. Most of my jobs have been as a delivery driver. My last job was driving for a popular delivery company, which paid the bills, but at the same time if I’m honest was slowly hindering me from enjoying a passionate part of my life; music. During my time working there I would often meet people who would tell me ‘I lost my job, I’m looking for work now’.

I would do my best to wish them well, pray for them too. No normal person would take joy in the unfortunate position of someone else’s position. As days past there was a company letter issued to all employees of this popular company I worked for, hinting that things would be changing in the company. I wasn’t surprised and to be honest I had already mentioned that I had planned to go part-time if it was possible. The plan being it would create an opening for me to try and push more for the music career that I have always wanted.

I turned up to work one day, did a full shift, at the end of my shift I was called into the office to have a ‘chat’ with two supervisors let’s say. In my mind at the time I thought it was them calling me up on my punctuality, which I can admit was not great, not terrible either but not immaculate. But it ain’t easy going to work at 2am in the morning to start at 3am sometimes. So there we were the 3 of us. Then the words came that went something like this;

‘Due to unfortunate circumstances ( I prefer not to give my name now maybe later) out of our control....I’m afraid we are going to have to LAY YOU OFF’.

As I heard the supervisor that spoke begin to speak, it was like something inside was telling me ‘I hope your listening..’. Then as soon as he said the phrase ‘LAY YOU OFF’ I kind of sympathised with him, as he seemed to try to find a nice way to say ‘YOUR SACKED’. However as he came to pause I smirked a smile, but it wasn’t directed at him or anyone in particular that smirk became a comforting smile as to say ‘well...this is kind of what you’ve been looking for...an opening’.

‘Yes you've lost your job’. It was also brought to my attention that I was not to be the only member of staff that would be affected. I was notified of all the available options possible, to which I heard, but I was clearly already OUT THE DOOR, DOWN THE ROAD, IN MY CAR, ON MY SOFA AT HOME.

So there you go, are you still working? If so that’s great, if not I pray you find a good job, which is still possible despite the current situation globally. Depending what you believe life is about, one thing is for sure, a job is nice and can come and go, but I think it’s fair or reasonable to consider that a life worth living is better. But once again you are entitled to believe as you wish to believe. I suppose that’s one of the gifts of life you could say.