2026: The dumpster is already on fire.

One month in and I'm over it.

If you live anywhere with the internet or you exist in a society(??), then you know the past year or so has been nothing but pure shit. It seems like the world is experiencing mass psychosis, and we are closing our eyes and hoping things will fix themselves. Now, I am no conspiracy theorist. In fact, I'm the complete opposite, but I can't help but wonder what the fuck is in our water.

I made it a habit to carry a physical journal with me everywhere, but lately I've been feeling less than inclined to pick it up. So I thought having a blog was the next best thing. I'm not a professional writer, so expectations are quite low, but I really need to get this off my chest. What the entire fuck is going on?

Excuse my language, ladies, gents, and they/them, it is currently 10 pm right now on a weeknight, so I should be doing something a bit more interesting. But something just possessed me to pick up my computer and write this. I need to complain to someone, and the three friends that I have are probably doing something more interesting tonight than "talk about the political and economic state of the world right now," as Jaden Smith gracefully put it.

Has anyone had a good time since 2009? Or ever? It seems like, regardless of one's location on our Little blue ball, things are just not looking right for us as a species right about now.

Will it ever get better?

Ever since I was little, I've learned about wars. Wars between countries, continents, and even neighborhoods. It is as if violence is an innate human quality and we can't help but be just that.. human.

That quality, however, does not excuse our perpetual violence towards each other. We look at primates and see a less evolved version of ourselves. It's as if somewhere during their evolution to "become us", something went very wrong, and they ended up like that. A version of ourselves that hangs on trees and eats bananas all day.

Some of us consider them our ancestors, with a level of intelligence that differs from ours. To put it simply, we see ourselves as superior. Not only to them but to every other species that grace the face of our planet.

Yet we are one push of a button away from going back to the Stone Age. That should alarm us. The sad thing is, if we do end up destroying our home, every single one of us will face the same consequences, regardless of background. War and despair don't discriminate.

It's such a sad reality for many folks just trying to survive the absurdity of life. Seeing all the shit that is going on in the world, one has to ask oneself, when? When will it ever get better? Are we cursed and just destined to nuke each other off, die? And then what we perish? We get reborn? Then we go through the same cycle again? That... is a curse.

We talk about the concept of a Utopia all the time in fiction, but I'm starting to realize that it will always remain just that, a concept. It's as if we are incapable of being selfless. It's amazing how we can have a functioning society and survive this far, because we really do work against each other. Every minute of the day, in every way possible.

Call me a pessimist, the way I can't seem to view the glass as half full. So will it ever get better? No one knows. But that's the beauty of life, ain't it? The mystery of it all...