Dear Future Husband

Have you ever dream with the perfect romance? Have you ever wanted love to come knocking on your door and taking your breath away? Do you believe in soulmates, and life partners? Well, I do. My name is Anna Johns and I live in a big city north from California. I have dreamt about my future husband since I was around six or seven. Do you wonder if I have found him? Well, no, but I still believe I will find him one day.

Sometimes loneliness is really hard to bear, and even though I have enjoyed my time as a single woman partying a lot, travelling all over the world and investing a lot of time on my profession becoming one of the most recognised journalist in my city, my true dream is to form a family. I want to build my own home next to a partner that wants to dream and fly as high as I have, but also that wants to stay grounded and real. Does that really exist?I mean the only men I tend to gravite to are either idealist that want to make of me a perfect woman, or dreamers that need a reality check. "Dude! We gotta pay bills still, and I need my alone time once in a while"

Anyways, in an attempt of escaping the sadness that built inside of me after spending hours hanging out with my friends and their partners, and seeing how lovely they look at each other, or seeing how he will surprise her with a kind gesture, or just being with them and understanding nothing of what they were saying because they talked in that annoying "inside-joke language" that only couples understand ( I hate that! But, I still want it so much), I decided to write a journal entry telling my future husband all about myself before he met me, and I'm planning to give it to him on our wedding day as a gift. This is my story and how I talk with someone I didn't know yet, but I was desperate to share every moment of my life with.

November 18, 2018

"Dear Future husband,

It is almost the end of 2018, and I haven't met you yet. I guess everything will arrive in time, and I might not be ready for you, but I don't have a partner to talk to; there's just so much I need to tell you that I came up with this idea. I don't know if you will ever read this journal, or if I will ever tell you about those days when I loved the idea of you. I hope I love you in the future, and that you love me. This diary also wants to show you the journey I went on, and the long effort I put to become a dignify wife for you.

I have worked everyday for the last year in order for me to become better and happier with myselfo, so the day I get to meet you. I'm able to take care of you and me. So, I can be there for you, help you make your dreams come true and build a life together. I hope if you are reading this, you know how much I am worth and how incredible, strong and caring woman I am. I hope you know how much I can do and you admire and respect me.

If you're reading this, you must be getting marry with me right now, I hope is a windet wedding. Do you like winter weddings? I hope it happens somewhere snowy, and that our families and friends are all there supporting and encouraging us in one of the most important days of our lives.

I want you to know that everything I have done is in a way for you to be proud and admire me. I know people suppose to build themselves for themselve, but being an amazing woman without anyone to give thse gits to means nothing to me. It feels like an empty promise.

Before I go love, I want to tell you ab out this amazing friend I have been lucky to met after a long time of not be able to connect to anyone. Hey name is Adrienne, and she is my current roomate. She is teaching me the power of compromise. She is believing in our friendship and has decided to stay adn work through the troubles we have had since we moved together. I love her so much. I hope you get to meet her. She is crazy, but she is the best.

However, I gotta confessed something to you. It has been really hard to stay in this house with her. It hurts when I need to fight her and try to defend my needs. I used to forget I had needs. I hope in this future we live in, I am better at that, and that I have learned how to defend myself without hurting anyone in the process. I also hope I am able to be more vulnerable and less agressive towards people who care about me. I hope you know I tried my best in case I failed. I'm sometimes scared of losing myself, but I love you.

Love, I wish I could stay here writing to you forever, but I gotta get ready for the day. Adrienne and I are looking for a roomate and she just arrived, so...I'll keep talking to you later. Wish me luck hon! I'm about to start another challenging adveture. Probably I feel the same today in our wedding day, but I love you and I hope you do too.

Sincerely,

Anna Johns

Your future wife