Drugs

I experienced using crack cocaine on a many of occasions throughout my life time and so what I’ve learned that crack is a low self esteem drug that puts illusion in your head it also help build’s up false confidence and takes you to a imaginary place unknown.if you don’t believe me look around your neighborhood at the crack users.Crack illusion makes you feel prettier,stronger,taller etc.Crack is a sex drug if you was told you wasn’t good enough to perform this drug would put hype into your personality making you feel like you was coming from an unknown place with the rhythm to a beat and in the illusionary world every walk of life is accepted, and once you’ve tried sex of any kind with crack this will be your drive in going backwards to.Even when you are sober and clean the minute something happens you fall back into that using state and how free it made you feel sexually on this low self esteem drug called crack.And in this low self esteem world doesn’t have cliques everyone just mingle together feeling comfortable to be around someone equal to them.Smoking made you feel like you could become anybody inside of this illusionary drug.Once you take that first hit you’ll always be trying to capture that first hit even if it’s decades later . This is the reason behind people you may know that has been using for a very long time that can’t quit. You create a beast from within that’s always trying to find a reason to come out this is one beast you’d wish you never let into your life. Even from the experience of sex with crack. Also anyone can become “The man” as long as you have the crack and the girls,and also if you was a slacker on your hygiene before you started smoking it would be worse because then you’ll become very filthy allowing everything go down .The reason people smoke is to numb the pain that was inflicted upon them from all different angles of life and they just wanna forget instead of dealing with root of the trauma such mistreatment, molestation,isolation, low self esteem ,abuse of all kinds.Now you also have low self esteem drug dealers , because anyone who would sell crack to someone else has to have some issues and these issues are failures in the academic or sports world and they was told by there parents or maybe not to be somebody,refusing to be a nobody settling to be an anybody . Once a drug dealer accomplish power,popularity he feels like he’s on top of the world and is unstoppable he can go around bullying people off the turf by assassinating and putting better products on the street and doesn’t stop at one block it turns into communities and you can see that this is a low self esteem move. I guess it’s easy to die then live,because living means every day you have to try a little harder then yesterday you have to press forward into thee unknown and you have to press through not knowing what’s on the next side.Now I live in this low self esteem crack addicted corpse,that I must walk on egg shells of which is the thorn in my side that keeps me and my prayer life in tack,because I don’t ever wanna fall back into the slumming,tricking,begging,scamming stealing,lying individual. And sometimes when I don’t feel like being better for myself I think about Jesus who gave his life for me and my grandson and what I’ve learned is Christ will show you why it’s important to be better. Thnks for letting me share