You Again? No, I don't wish for your company
I've already shared too much
I know there will be no moving on
But perhaps you could give me a rest for now?
Of course, I still hold true to what I let out
But for the sake of all that is holy
and for my sake,
let the rest stay in.
If I can just distract myself from you,
create new business, can't you do the same?
I can compromise. Maybe we can discuss it
on certain calendar days. You know, the important
ones. The ones I would never wish to re-live again.
Would that satisfy you?
Maybe I'd be ready if it were planned, my idea.
Now, go away.
I will embrace you again, but on my terms.
But not today!
About the Creator
Shirley Belk
Mother, Nana, Sister, Cousin, & Aunt who recently retired. RN (Nursing Instructor) who loves to write stories to heal herself and reflect on all the silver linings she has been blessed with :)
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Grief sure can be a bitch sometimes. You think things are getting better, you've figured out how to keep going, then out of the blue the smallest thing sends you reeling. Just the other day I was sobbing to the point I couldn't breathe just because a truck that looked like my Dad's turned onto my street. For the briefest moment I thought he was coming to visit and then I remembered it's been almost 4 years. But then sometimes I'm glad for that pain. It means that love he brought to my life is still there, he's still part of me. I wish I could reach through this screen and give you a hug. I would love to sit next to you and have you tell me all about your son. Writing about it is powerful, but sharing stories out loud and laughing together over the memories is a different kind of catharsis.
Grief is a horrible thing to have to process. I am sorry you are going though it as well.
This was so relatable. Sending you lots of love and hugs ❤️
Yes, this is exactly what grief feels like 😞 Sending love ❤️
Aw, big hugs my friend. This is great and all too relatable. I hope even just writing it and published it helped you get a reprieve.