I’m Lost

I’m Lost

Lost in the greed to be successful

Lost in the selfishness to get everything

Lost in the race to be at the top

Lost in the dream of becoming like someone

Lost in the lust around me

Lost in the class, race, and gender

Lost in the world where I don’t belong

Life isn’t just moving forward, it's taking away to serenity, the modesty, the culture, the traditions, the humanity, the class, the love, the care, and so on...

I always wonder where I should go. Am I a robot to be moving in a race where I’m just a midcore person who is not even in the running and is just struggling in line with the thought that I would be at the top?

Does that really matter to be at the top? Does it really matter to have everything? Everything that belongs to the world but not me.

Then what belongs to me?

I wonder what actually belongs to me? I’m just looking around, running behind the things just to make sure that I'm filled with everything. I wonder about it.

Somewhere in the race, I've lost myself, and I'm now an empty shell, looking for myself. Wondering where I might be? What I am looking for is making me anxious.

Is it the money I want, or success? Position? Class? Authority? or what I think is just piece of mind!

After being lost, what I found is emptiness, deception, cruelty, lies, and ditching faces. I'm amazed at what I was and what I’m. Just my thoughts talking to me, and I'm a man alone sitting and looking at the loss.

Wondering what I want...

I think all I want is peace! Or I wonder if it's love! Or a life which circles around me!

Just a life where I exist.

A life where I'm present. Where I'm alive, where I can breathe and enjoy. where I can live how I want.

I wonder if I can find that place or will be lost in this world where nothing belongs to me.