Finding Gratitude In My Life

A life lived full of gratitude

Is a life worth living

That wasn’t my life

But it's starting to be

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I spent my days bitter

Hating what my higher power gave me

I always wanted more

More booze, More sex, More drugs

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I couldn’t even fathom the depth of this hole inside me

A black festering hole

Swallowing all the good in my life

Regurgitating the black ooze

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Living life on my own terms had me pay a price

Paying with my sanity

Losing my mind

I was disconnected

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When I got sober

I found gratitude

In people, in my higher power

Most importantly in my own life

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I no longer had to feed that black hole

Faith and gratitude filled it up

It lost its power

It helped me move forward in my life

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Now I live each day with gratitude

Gratitude for being alive and free

Gratitude for loved ones and friends

Gratitude for no longer having to be a prisoner of my own ambitions