Cognitive Dissonance

I wish it had been better,

When we were together.

Though the blame is not all my own,

The seeds of hatred sown,

Were.

I wish I had been brave enough,

But burying you was far too tough.

And I felt like I just couldn’t do it -

So I didn’t.

Your memory haunts every single Paramore song -

Now they feel a little too long.

The playlist dwindles -

And I remove the ones that remind me.

It felt so damn good to let myself hate you.

If I could apologize,

I might stop trying to rationalize.

But the pain is not all mine,

And I should be done crying,

Now.

But I’m not.