Broken Mirror

No song can capture how I feel

No book or movie to see my pain reflected in it

Like a broken mirror -

I can't go on like this

Moving on feels like pulling teeth

I wanted to be the one who walks beside you

And holds your hand through difficult times

Is this such a crime?

Am I something hateful?

Are you scared of me?

Since we don't speak

I don't feel free

Tie my arm with an elastic and inject me with heroin

I am wasted again

I am wasting my life

Waiting for a miracle

Waiting for the day you will tell me good morning

I am bleeding on everyone

Trying not to bleed on you

As you stab me over and over

With the knife I gave to you as a present

You were my past

Why can't you be my future?

Why can't you stand me?

I can't even stand myself

I have been sick all day

Wondering what you said

In that message you took away

I have been drinking bottles of wine

Can't feel anything

But hot tears, watering my face

Watering my ears

Do I deserve this?

If so then I will take it

But I am breaking down

I am falling to pieces

I am falling apart

Without your face

Without your voice

Without your touch

Help me, save me from myself

So I can quit writing worthless things

So I can quit crying every night

So I can be allowed to hold you tight

Take my soul in the night

It's yours

My heart is yours

My skin, my hair, my bones

They are all yours

If I could throw myself at your feet

Then I would

But you would just stomp on me

Go on then, do it, block me again

I am dying slowly

Without your face

Without your voice

Without your touch