Am I a side chick?

Am I just some side chick?

Are you texting other girls? This is what I think of when my mind whirls around and around. Have you found another girl? Every time your online I think an I a bother to him? Am I some side chick he’s texting to make me feel better? Girl stop all this thinking you’re fine……

It’s a real struggle for me these days. I wonder what else lays on his head as he goes online. Am I jealous? What am I? I just miss my love and want him back but instead I lie here on my back thinking that I put a crack in his life.

Heart broken I am yet again if only I can change the past. When I see you my love I wonder are we going to be the missing gloves and get back together? Oh how I wish I can just be with you at this very moment. You could take care of me and I’ll take good care of you. That’s exactly what boyfriends and girlfriends do.

Come cuddle me in bed while I’m sick let’s kick this feeling not well out of our systems.Oh how I wish you were here but instead I’m debating if I should shed this damn tear.

The cold winter days are short which reminds me of how we used to sit watching the water when we first met. But now I sit at home watching my pets do their thing.

You leave me on read which makes me want to burn a whole through my bed and dive deep deep down into a huge pit in the ground. Here I can sleep peacefully, live without emotions and never be found. I make myself a bed in this pit and sleep happily.