The Ink That Change My Life

Since a young girl I suffered with depression. I was Born in Tennessee, and grew up in south of Memphis where it is very hard to dream big and the only thing most people knew was Gangs, drugs, or Jail. Being molested and taken for granted so young led me to pills, suicidal thoughts and self harming myself. I Became mute the last few years of my childhood and I always felt ugly, hated, unwanted and just not enough for anyone most of the time. Being apart of a family where most things got swept under the rug, made me broken, but yet strong all together.

It came to a point in my life where I had to decide rather I was going to let my hardship control me and my life, or if I was going to feel bad for myself, and allow others too as well. I was going crazy in my head cutting everyday just trying to feel some type of something. I started getting older and realizing that the happiness starts with myself and learned I didn't have to be where I came from. I decided to get a tattoo that would remind me that I am smart enough. I am talented enough, I am good enough, successful enough, beautiful enough and strong enough.

Day by day I was getting better with who I was as a person. I started eating more, I started talking more, I started to wise up, and wanted nothing but the best for me. This tattoo helped me to quit self harming myself and to always believe in me. It's not easily said then done, and it's very hard to not overthink when you are alone, (in idle time) so this tattoo gives me hope. when I look at it I reread every word as it symbolized how far I have come and who I am as a person.

There are days where I still feel alone, but looking at this Ink of faith on my skin, helps me to love myself so much more than I ever did. when I got my tattoo I didn't really know what it was I wanted I just knew that I had to change myself for me. Getting this tattoo have been one of the best decision for me, it makes me smile when I'm down and sad, it gives me courage and strength when I feel like I want to give up. This tattoo reminds me how much I should love myself when I think about harming, and it helps me understand that if I love myself enough, and understand that happiness starts with me, then I shouldn't have anything else to worry about, other than my own success and happiness.

Today I can can comfortably say, I'm full of confidence, and ready to take on the world. Did the tattoo do this alone? no, but it helped me make the right affirmations my mind needed in order to change my thinking process. I am now a business owner of a production company, and I shoot videos along with photography. This Ink on my skin will always be the extra push I need to keep going, giving me all the positive vibes I need to remain humble, kind, and self loving. This Tattoo not only helped me see the beauty in myself, but the beauty in others around me. having a tattoo like this, I now understand how important affirming positive thing in your life truly is. My tattoo will always be my life story, because it saved me from a lot of things. Physically looking at it you would just see a nice tattoo, but understanding it, you would see something much bigger, and for that, I am truly grateful to have something so meaningful apart of me.