HEALING DIDN'T COME LOUDLY.

Have you ever felt overwhelmed by life’s challenges, with your heart heavy and your mind restless, yearning for sleep and searching desperately for peace?
Sometimes, healing seems out of reach, yet in those moments of uncertainty, I discovered a beautiful truth. Ths is my story: There was a season in my life when sleep became difficult and peace felt unfamiliar. My body was tired, but my mind refused to rest. I carried silent battles, questions I couldn’t answer, emotions I didn’t fully understand, and pain I didn’t know how to explain. From the outside, I looked fine. But inside me, I was dying. Healing felt far away. I prayed, but sometimes the pain doubled.I was frustrated, I felt unworthy, not enough, and empty. I felt too tired, too broken, always anxious and panicked at the slightest distraction. I was so uncertain about the future and did overthink alot. I felt something was wrong somewhere, but I just couldn't figure it out. I became withdrawn, no more interested in socialization and stayed indoors most often. The more people tried coming closer, the more I pulled back, because I felt I wasn't in my best shape and needed to heal first.

But in the quiet moments of my deepest struggles, when life felt heavy and uncertain, I caught myself bouncing back to life during meditation. I felt His presence; so peaceful, gentle and relieving. I begged within me that the time should pause so dawn wouldn't break during meditation, because I just wanted to stay with my Heavenly Father who understood me more than anyone else would. I also found peace through exposure to His Word in the Holy Bible, on the media, through church, spirit-filled songs, and an environment filled with true and genuine love; from friends and family whose love was really priceless.
It was God’s gentle presence and guidance that carried me through sleepless nights and restless thoughts, reminding me that I was never alone.
One lesson that transformed my healing was learning to practice self-compassion, which taught me to treat myself with the same grace and kindness that God shows me every day. This sacred partnership between my heart and mind allowed God’s forgiveness to meet my own, helping me release fear ,pain and embrace hope.
Practicing self-compassion can be simple but powerful. These practices, among others I did include:
❤️ Speaking kindly to myself, just like I would to a dear friend.
❤️ Giving myelf permission to rest and heal without guilt.❤️ Letting go of the past I couldn't control.

❤️Learning from past mistakes, forgiving myself and those who hurt me and wishing them the best in life.

❤️Acknowledging my feelings without judgment. Yeah, I didn't need to pretend to myself . If I was happy, sad or angry, I admitted it within. And tried ways to control these feelings and act appropriately.

❤️I continuously reminded myself of my worth. My worth was tied to me being created and loved unconditionally by God and not centered on status, background or educational level that places value on people.

❤️I declared positive affirmations such as: “I am loved", “I am favored", “I am an advantaged person", “ I have an excellent spirit in me", “I am encouraged” and “I am blessed” upon my life and believed it cause whatever declared with the tongue and by faith will come to pass.
❤️ Turning to prayer or meditation to connect with God’s peace and love. Yes, I no more saw prayer as a duty but rather a powerful medium to communicate with God, my Heavenly Father. I poured out my heart freely to Him, talked about uncertainties, my fears, needs, what made me happy.

Gradually, it became less about perfection and more about the tender journey God was leading me on, step by step, with patience and love. I became focused, developed more appetite for food, friendship, learning and discovering new things. And today, here I am, happy and free. I thank God for the new me.🥰🤗🥰