The Lioness Within

I know nothing of Astrology. Sun or Moon. Fire and water. All are parts of a whole. One does not exist without the other. Together, the elements can create something beautiful or become a disaster. Water boils above flames, flames are snuffed out by earth, plants grow by soaking up water and sunlight. It is a matter of how the elements are used. How they are combined. What their purpose is. The same concept can be applied to humanity. Our traits can be changed by our environments. Our dreams. Our struggles. Our purpose.

Leos are said to be known for catching the attention of a crowded room, for craving heroism, their generosity and their ability to be regal and dignified creatures. Leo traits are flamboyant, creative, ambitious, bold and prideful. To me these are just words applied in basic form. They mean nothing if they are not derived from actions. How does one know if they are a reflection of their cosmically destined character?

I suppose I have always been a Lion at heart. I have lazily wondered with intent for much of my life. As a child, I never could soak up enough sunlight, as a fire sign I assume this is normal. Summer has always been my favorite season. I sit and watch the way people moved around me. Noticing their strides, intentions and power. I find myself studying the weaknesses and strengths in everyone and everything around me. Cautiously calibrating situations before pouncing into action.

I’ve lived steadily, quietly and powerfully. Ruling my own world, chasing my dreams and constantly overcoming all things put in front of me. Each struggle making me stronger than the last. Not all days were easy, but how can one rule without experiencing resistance. Poetry and art serving as the only escape from my own mind. My power is hidden in words. Words that have flowed from me since birth. My tenacious nature bringing me to the right place at the right time.

I reached a plateau in my life. An emptiness filled me. I crave heroism and greatness in all forms. I fall quiet, I’ve stopped using my words and art to move crowds. My need to satisfy becomes feelings of lacking and unworthiness. This calls for some very intense soul searching. I can feel the fire inside me dying to be released. Begging to be seen and heard. The roar quietly grows within me. I start to panic, I almost can’t breathe, my reflection is a stranger. Like looking into a watering hole and seeing the mouse instead of the Lion.

As I desperately seek admiration and fulfillment, I rush to speak for the unheard, the forgotten, the lost. I stand against all the injustices to those seen as different. To those who are feared because they are unknown. I relate to the voices who do not know their power or how to use it. I find myself selfishly selfless. How is that you ask. Through my selfish need for achievement, I find my calling. My gift is to fight for those less bold than I. I crave this self-awareness and growth now. I have spent so much time feeding my ego that I lost my true purpose. My Lioness will never lead this way.

I begin uniting like minds, creating opportunities, focusing on the true purpose of my character. Whether it be the Leo in me, the Lioness like soul I was gifted or simply the courageous act of utilizing my power to change lives to feed my ego. I have found my purpose. To challenge the current state, to lead my people by example, to achieve greatness. My greatness is measured by the greatness I create. Pushing others into success is my success. My loyalty runs so deep my only weakness is becoming attached to my achievements and being loudly transparent to my counterparts.

Is this Leo of me? Am I supposed to care what others see when they look at me? Do I correct those who have wronged me? Is it normal to love others more than myself? Why do I measure my worth by the amount of worth I give to others? Is it selfishness that brought me to my gift or is it fate? The lives I impact feed my ego. Is that wrong, or right? Was I born a leader or a sociopath? Who says? Who decides that? How do we give power to someone or something to decide what our souls are capable of or what tendencies we may have?

Knowing nothing of Astrology and everything about my soul, my actions are a reflection of my beliefs. My love, kindness, loyalty and willingness to lead when others can’t, or refuse, say more about me than a Zodiac sign ever could. Maybe Zodiacs mean nothing. Maybe you have all been fooled and therefore are not reaching your full potentials because you are bound to the rules and guidelines that have been created to describe you. Maybe that is a box created to keep the weak minded from becoming leaders. Is that too bold to say? I guess that’s the Leo in me, the dominant Lioness that roars within and refuses to be caged.